Had a bad day today and can't help but feel somewhat guilty/remorseful. At my church on previous Sundays there had been a young man, looked about 18 or 19 years old, who appeared to be really struggling. He would frequently go up to the altar at the beginning of the church service (even before the altar call) and pray, and it seemed as if people always brushed him off as just another troubled youth. I admit that I at first had the same reaction, but as time went on I grew more and more interested in helping this guy out. I said hi to him a few times, and I wanted to talk to him about some of the troubles that he was having but I never got the courage to ask someone, a complete stranger, if there was any way in which I could help him.
Well, it turns out that this week he went missing. Search parties were sent out, and today he was found dead after a self-afflicted gunshot wound. I can't help but feel that if I had been strong enough to talk to him when I felt my heart calling me to that maybe this whole thing could have been avoided.
Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Is there any way for me to escape this constant guilt that I feel now?
Well, it turns out that this week he went missing. Search parties were sent out, and today he was found dead after a self-afflicted gunshot wound. I can't help but feel that if I had been strong enough to talk to him when I felt my heart calling me to that maybe this whole thing could have been avoided.
Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Is there any way for me to escape this constant guilt that I feel now?
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